I’m still trying to figure things out and see where life will take me and this blog is a tool to doing just that. I believe a time will come when I will no longer need this forum to air my thoughts, and when it does I will embrace it wholeheartedly. Otherwise enjoy the ride while it lasts.
Today was such a pretty day that I cannot get over it and a part of me kinda never wants it to end. I don’t know if I woke up on the right side of the bed or what but I feel brilliant despite the fact that I didn’t do much of anything. I feel like I am in love with life–like I am having an out of body experience. I keep looking at myself and wondering why it is I feel so happy when really I shouldn’t (says the ungrateful part of my being). Yet funny thing, I do. This is precisely why it strikes me as amazing how you can be in the exact same situation for months on end and the only difference comes in with the way you respond to it.
Anyway. Sat outside on the balcony for a while soaking in the rays of the setting sun, staring at birds flying oh so freely in the sky above and wondering what it is about their effortless existence that makes them tick BECAUSE I WANT IT; and staring at the shapes formed by the clouds.
It’s a flying puppy, head bent forward to propel! And suddenly, it’s not a puppy but a monkey sketched by Dr. Seuss, its brows an unforgiving slant. Flying monkey with head bent forward and pawed feet. And then it’s a falcon–glorious, natural, doing it’s thing. And I look away for a second, take a sip of my tea, stare once more at the soaring birds until I get cross-eyed, look back, sigh. It’s clouds again. Not just one, but four that joined up together to tell me a story for a second or two.
I never want this feeling to go away.
As some of you may already know, I’m a HUGE fan of Lorde’s music. It was while doing my monthly Vevo-hopping this afternoon that I came across her newest release–Yellow Flicker Beat, off the soundtrack of The Hunger Games: Mocking Jay Part 1. If there is something I appreciate about Lorde other than her distinctive musical style, that would be her songwriting. At times the storytelling is very straight forward and easily absorbable as in the songs White Teeth Teens and Royals. Other times it is so compellingly complex a la Buzzcut Season and my all-time favourite of hers No Better– that the more you listen to a track, the more you get it, and the more personal it becomes. So it is with Yellow Flicker Beat. With lines like, The scars that mark my body they’re silver and gold and I got my fingers laced together and I made a little prison…I’m locking up everyone who ever laid a finger on me; I can’t help but be drawn in.
Now tell me you like the song as much as I do because you couldn’t possibly like it more.
…For when your inspiration levels are running low :) Continue reading